sunk

doubting every decision i make. doubting myself. why am i where i am. falling?
never as smart, never as pretty. never as fit, never as wealthy.
dirt. a spec. who cares. bag of bones.

love.

why does my heart bother to beat. takes up space and emotions.
make me disappear. ill swim to the bottom of the sea. or if you let me, ill just *poof*